Trusting in Him

So this morning Nate and I found out that Lily delivered baby boy. He is doing wonderful supposedly. The thing is that this is suppose to be a joyous event for Nate and I and right now my heart aches. The reason is because due to some events we are unable to make it to the hospital until birth counselor goes first. She is unable to make it till at least after 2. That's also not a guarantee that we will still be invited. I know God's plan will be perfect and beautiful, but as I sit here and type this I cry at the unknown. Therefore, please pray for us. Pray that Lily follows the spirit's guidance. Pray that we can see him today and pray that he becomes our son. I know these are selfish prayers because I desire to parent this little boy, but at the same time I know they are not because we can give him so much. I desire contentment and strength from Him today and for the next 12 days (in hospital and 10 days Lily gets to make up her mind). Hopefully in the end, the Klausers of three become the Klausers of four.