Once again we want to thank you all for praying! It means the world to us.
As I mentioned in the previous post, birth mother met with her birth counselor today to discuss what Bethany Christian Services can do to help her make a decision. They came up with a few things.
Therefore, it's comforting to know that hopefully this will all be concluded in two weeks, but I ache thinking two more weeks of this. Everyday wondering is this going to be my last feeding, holding, bathing and talking with Caleb. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hopeful that your prayers will be heard and answered and Caleb will stay, but I still have to prepare myself for the worst. I have so many thoughts and feelings right now that I don't even know how to express them in words. I'm just ready for God to reveal his final plan (hopefully resulting in our family of four staying a family of four forever).
As for prayer requests:
-God would reveal what's the best interest for Caleb
-Our relationship with birth mother and her family would grow and remain healthy especially for Caleb.
-Peace and strength in the next few weeks for everyone involved.
-Specifically for me, to be the mother I need to be to both kids the next few weeks. I find myself playing mind games or not being patient enough with Elyse because I am focusing so much of my time with Caleb instead of equally distributing it like I have the last two months.
-Above all, that people could see our faith in the Lord and how AMAZING, GRACIOUS and LOVING He is, and that living for Him and His plan no matter how painful the outcome is is 100% worth it.
For grandparents: Caleb's 2 month appointment went well today. Will post 2 month picture and stats tomorrow since I feel this post is more important right now.